Yesterday, I didn't do the workout DVD. Instead, I went to San Francisco and marched a little bit to protest the California Supreme Court Ruling that upheld Prop 8. Today, I woke up with a bad cold. I have a sore throat and I'm sneezing like crazy.
Still, I put in the 30 Day Shred DVD. And, by the end of circuit 1/strength, I started to cry. I didn't feel good, and I just. Broke. I paused the DVD, and texted DH "I don't know if I can do this today." And I sat. And waited for a response.
Guess what? It didn't come right away. I waited for a few minuted and asked myself. What am I waiting for? And I decided that I was waiting for DH to say that I could take a break and not finish working out. So that way the responsibility wasn't on me. But here's the thing: IT IS.
So I pressed play and continued. And pushed through it. And FINISHED. It was hard. It was SO hard today. I had to stop during plank twists again. But I did it. I'm strong enough to do it.
I feel a little guilty that I took a break (about 5 minutes in total), but I'm proud that I pushed play when I could have just stopped. I'm proud that I took the initiative to continue even when I was breaking down.
The rest of today, I'm going to relax and try to shake this cold of mine. And listen to some of Jillian Michael's podcasts. Clearly, I'm a big fan of her.
I need a hug. And some support today. But I am persevering. And can I say, I'm starting to see a difference. In my body, and my willpower.
--Steph | My Weightloss Struggle
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