Well, it's 6 months later...and I've been doing a whole hell of a lot of nothing. School started, I have around 3 jobs right now, and very little money. This whole process was much easier when I had extra income to spend on the right foods, on the gym, etc. Now I feel like I have no time to work out, let alone buy groceries, or spend time with DH. I didn't blog because I didn't want anyone to know what I wasn't doing. Although I think my lack of blogs was probably pretty obvious to all.
What to do now? Well. I have to get into the right mindset. I'm not sure if I've ever been in the right mindset. I wanted to lose weight to look better, make people jealous, feel better about myself. But that's not really the right reason. I'm not sure what the right reason is, but I need to find it if I'm going to do this and make it last for once.
I need to stop worrying what people think about what I'm doing with my life. I got a whole lot of crap from my family when I started watching what I ate. But it's not their body. Gaining weight back or eating unhealthy due to pressure? No thanks.
Why do I want to lose weight? Cuz I'm feeling sluggish and icky. Even though I'm eating better than I did 4 years ago, I'm still eating out way too much. I used to feel empowered and knowledgable about my choices. Now I just feel...kinda depressed. And it has to have something to do with my lack of exercise...and vitamins.
Well, welcome back to My Weightloss Struggle. Let's see if we can make a better go around this time.
--Steph
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